Changing Heart

Its funny how I feel
Now that I no longer want to cry
I’ll make you see I’m real
As I stand by your side
I’ll make you hear my voice
I’ll make you look my way
You really won’t have a choice
Because I’m going to stay
I’m going to laugh loud
I’m going to smile big
I’m going to make my friends proud
Because you’re not going to win
I’m not going to suffer anymore
I’m not going to flinch away
I’m going to move my feet off the floor
I’m not going to stay
You are going to feel my pain
When I stand right there
Your days are going to seem the same
But I’m not going to care
I will still love you
With all my heart
But I'll hate you too
Because you’re all I think about
So unlike the years before
In those that I cry
I’m going to shut the door
And let my past finally die
Though this feeling you give to me
Will forever pulse in my soul
But I’ve finally begun to see
That it is taking its toll

Understanding

Unable to tear my eyes away
From our memories
Unable to stray
A tunnel vision is all I see
You’re at the end
Away from me
I struggle along the path to you
Fighting my way
Through my darkened field of view
My friends are worried about this obsession
But I’ve held it for so long
It feels like my only possession
Some have give up and walked away
Others have fought
To tear my gaze astray
I have tried to fight this clutch of my heart
It squeezes and burns
Holding my world apart
I’ve tried to look past what I see
To see the sky
Or even the trees
But you walk back into my sight
And soon I forget
That I was trying to fight
I have fought to tears
Trying to escape your suffocating grasp

Only to face my darkest fears
When I turn away I see a world in the dark
I see the pain and suffering
That makes me never want to part
While you don’t care for me anymore
I look to you for my light in life
I look to you to help me get off the floor
I understand now why I can never turn away
No matter how much I suffer
At your side I will always stay