Changing Heart

Its funny how I feel
Now that I no longer want to cry
I’ll make you see I’m real
As I stand by your side
I’ll make you hear my voice
I’ll make you look my way
You really won’t have a choice
Because I’m going to stay
I’m going to laugh loud
I’m going to smile big
I’m going to make my friends proud
Because you’re not going to win
I’m not going to suffer anymore
I’m not going to flinch away
I’m going to move my feet off the floor
I’m not going to stay
You are going to feel my pain
When I stand right there
Your days are going to seem the same
But I’m not going to care
I will still love you
With all my heart
But I'll hate you too
Because you’re all I think about
So unlike the years before
In those that I cry
I’m going to shut the door
And let my past finally die
Though this feeling you give to me
Will forever pulse in my soul
But I’ve finally begun to see
That it is taking its toll